FEVER...RASH...COUGH...AHHH....

all those are quite annoying words once your a mom, but the worst of all it TEETHING. You think 'Hell, kill me now' with that one. I was up at least 5 times and for a total of about 4 hours last night with a baby screaming bloody murder. Now she has shots today and I'm dreading taking her. I can't get her dad to do the dirty work, and who wants polio? So I guess I'll have to take her myself. BLAH!

kiddie mixes & outlawed candy

Adam and I had a really funny discussion last night, it was about candy (of all things!).

We were watching Jurassic Park 3 (neither of us had seen it!) and it was on the cartoon network. On pops a commercial and it was for Tootsie Pops, like the 'how many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop?' '1-2-3- CRUNCH!' that one, right? (the funny part is anyone old enough to read this, knows what I'm talking about). So we start laughing that there will be at least one commercial Zoe watches that we used to watch too.

Then we get on the topic of 'bad candy'. this would be like candy cigarettes, big league bubble gun (supposed to be like chew). those kind of things. weird how things change.

I remember spending my $5 allowance on candy, and ending up with enough candy for the whole week. Then I was PISSED as a 12 year old when they stopped selling candy cigarettes because the tips started being painted red, and they looked too real!

BE POSITIVE!

My new outlook on life since being diagnosed with post pardum depression after giving birth to my daughter is to be positive. You do nothing but drag yourself down by being unhappy. (not to mention you make all the people who are around you miserable, and if they have no choice than to be around you it's like torture.

There is a wonderful book my mommy told me about called The Secret their website is
www.thesecret.tv Since reading it, I think that I live my life in a positive way, and have high hopes for myself. I have a lot of goals now, and I think that is the way to be most sucessful. I got this email this morning, and I decided to post it here. It's called 40 ways to be happier in 2008.
40 Tips for Better Life - 20081. Take a 10-30 minute walk every day. And while you walk, smile. It is the ultimate anti-depressant.2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day. Buy a lock if you have to.3. Buy a DVR and tape your late night shows and get more sleep.4. When you wake up in the morning complete the following statement, 'My purpose is to __________ today.'5. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.6. Play more games and read more books than you did in 2007.7. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, tai chi, and prayer. They provide us with daily fuel for our busy lives.8. Spend time with people over the age of 70 and under the age of 6.9. Dream more while you are awake.10. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.11. Drink green tea and plenty of water.. Eat blueberries, wild Alaskan salmon, broccoli, almonds & walnuts.12. Try to make at least three people smile each day.13. Clear clutter from your house, your car, your desk and let new and flowing energy into your life.14. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip, energy vampires, issues of the past, negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.15. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.16. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like college kid with a maxed out charge card.17. Smile and laugh more. It will keep the energy vampires away.18. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.20. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.21. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.22. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.23. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.24. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.25. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: 'In five years, will this matter?'26. Forgive everyone for everything.27. What other people think of you is none of your business.28. GOD heals almost everything.29. However good or bad a situation is, it will change. 30. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.31. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.32. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.33. The best is yet to come.34. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up. 35. Do the right thing!36. Call your family often. (Or email them to death!!!) 37. Each night before you go to bed complete the following statements: I am thankful for __________. Today I accomplished _________.38. Remember that you are too blessed to be stressed.39. Enjoy the ride. Remember this is not Disney World and you certainly don't want a fast pass. You only have one ride through life so make the most of it and enjoy the ride.40. Forward to everyone you care about.

I'm so not taking the time to seperate all that. So enjoy it how it is!

Wow oh Wow

So I want to type a song here, but I think it's highly inappropriate. It's all about someone being a dick. Nice huh?

I am so frustrated, that I can't see straight, but I also just got the biggest laugh EVER. As angry/upset/frustrated as I am, I'm so not letting it get to me. HAHA

Ah.. another weekend...

So this weekend went pretty well. I think it was a sucessful weekend overall.
A few quick things about it...


I love my boyfriend. I can't wait for him to be my husband. I want to shout it off the rooftops that I am in love with him and I am so excited to be with him forever.

and...
I love my baby! She is the brightest little thing. :-) This morning when she woke up in her crib after daddy left and the dumb dogs woke her with their whining and begging for breakfast all I heard was her in there quietly saying 'dadadadada.... ahhhhhhhhhhhhh....dadadadada..... gggggggooooooooaaaaaahhhhhh....DA DA DA DA DA.....' and she would scream it for a minute and then calm back down and whisper a little and then shreik some, happy little girl though.


Our dogs can go to hell. Thats all I have to say about that. Gixxy is shaved (accomplished that yesterday) and she looks like a sewer rat. I'll post a picture sometime.



Anyways, I did a LOT of scrapbooking this weekend, YAY. and I got my hair cut, and found out that Ann (my SIL/brothers GF) scrapbooks too, so she hung out with Zoe & I on Saturday and we went to costco and the scrapbooking store. Good time I tell you, good time! :-)


We watched No Country for Old Men this weekend too. We started saturday night, and then our power went out, so we had to go to bed since we didn't have very many options at that point. We finished it on Sunday, and I have to say- not what I expected and really good but then it just *boom* ended and I was kind of left like 'wtf just happened?' so who knows, it was good though.

Then we watched Gone Baby Gone, I really liked this one. It was a little messed up and a little out there, but really good too. Really makes you think about what you would do, and what is right and what is wrong. Very good plot, not the best acting. But it does have the girl from heartbreak kid, and casey affleck.



I took some really cute pictures of Zoe this morning. She is so happy in the mornings (see above) I just love it. Her hair is all 'bedheadish' and cute.
Here's a picture:

rash!

That word almost makes you think 'RUN!' it's really a frantic word to me now. I think maybe it's because I'm a mommy now, and when your a mommy and you hear about a rash, you think 'oh no. a rash' and then panic sets in and you become frantic to find out what it really is.

The reason I'm talking about this is because Zoe is with grandma right now, at the doctors with a rash and I'm waiting to hear what it is. I hope it's something simple, but by the looks of it, it's not diaper rash, and it's yucky and raised red bumps. Poor kid.

Adam keeps telling me I'm a hypochandriac. I don't think so, I like to think I'm cautious. That sounds much better. This is what I found on google: an attention freak who creates imaginary physical disorders. I really don't think of myself this way.

Really though, who would have thought?

alright, what the f*ck! I just typed out a wonderful, sarcastic & descriptive first blog to introduce myself and talk about myself a little too much and apparently this 'blogger' didn't like it so it deleted the sh*t. Maybe it will save this one.

Anyways, my name is dawn. I would have never thought I would have a blog. I am not really into the internet except for checking out baby stuff, surfing when I'm bored, music and occasionally checking out my next thing to buy when I go shopping.