Walk N Rock @ Safeco Field in Seattle

Today, the Walk n Rock for the TEARS foundation took place. I've been looking forward to this since I heard about it, and can say I wasn't prepared for my emotions today! All was good in the world with me this morning (except for the fact that my baby is gone... and Krispy Kreme made a HORRIBLE mocha, but nbd there).

Below is Adam and Zoe, holding hands and walking in front of me... and I couldn't help but get a couple photos of daddy and Zoe.

As soon as Knox's little photo came up on the big screen at Safeco Field, I instantly burst into tears. The field was lined with butterflies; they had one name per butterfly and had the name on one baby who had died.

A good friend of mine, Danielle lost her daughter Kailey Pearl, at 34 weeks. They were not helped by the TEARS foundation, because they didn't know about it, but they had Team Kailey Pearl today, and walked along with us, Team Knox.

This is Noah, he is a friend of mine's son, adorable little guy. His mom and I were both pregnant together, and Noah is about two months or so younger than Knox. He came with his momma to walk with us for his friend in heaven.

At the Walk N Rock, the total raised for the TEARS foundation, to help other families who will lose children soon.... $52,000.00! Amazing! If each family recieves 500, like we did that is over 100 families. I am amazed everytime I see Sarah Slack, the founder as well as a parent who lost a child- the compassion that is just her never fails to amaze me. She is an amazing and compassionate woman who truely is blessed with the ability to help other people every day.

Thank you Sarah for putting on an amazing function, and I'm so glad we got to be a part of it!

Walk N Rock At Safeco Field

While I've been busy working away at the barn , playing with Zoe, papercrafting and procrastinating with wedding planning (yea, that's right it IS in two weeks!) The Walk N Rock snuck up on me!

Team Knox is the team we set up in memory of our little guy, to help the TEARS Foundation to raise more funds to help other families in need. Knox's story can be read here. Also, there was a story done about the TEARS Foundation in which King 5 News & Sarah Slack, the founder asked us to be a part of. The clip can be watched here-- about halfway down the post.

With the Walk N Rock coming up June 26th, we will be there raising money and supporting the TEARS Foundation during the walk. Knox's photos are going to be up on the wall, as well as on the big screen!

If you are local, and free that day, I would LOVE for you to join our team, and come walk with us. For the $10 registration fee you will recieve a tee shirt that will say you are part of 'Team Knox'. Go ahead and click this link - and you can put in your information to sign up!

If you can't walk with us, I would love it if any of you could make even a tiny (or big if you can!) donation to our team. I set our goal amount a little way little higher than I thought we could, and intend to bug the hell out of everyone to get as close as possible.

Your donation is 100% TAX DEDUCTIBLE! Please remember this, and ---- FORWARD THIS ON TO ANYONE WHO HAS HAD CHILDREN OR YOU THINK WOULD BE INTERESTED IN KNOX'S STORY OR WEBSITE!!

Thanks everyone, and can't wait to hear from you, and see lots of you in the next few weeks!

Dawn, Adam & Zoe

Donations can be made here:- www.firstgiving.com/teamknox

TEARS Foundation, and the upcoming Walk and Rock!

Baby Knox @ 38 weeks or so. Ultrasound taken at Sonosite Ultrasounds in Bothell, WA.

Imagine planning and setting up a nursery for a child you’ve expected for nine months. You spend as much time and money as you can to have every necessity for when you get to bring your bundle of joy home, and be as prepared for them as possible. Many people take time off of work to become familiar with their new child and very few get paid for the 6-12 weeks they take off to recover from childbirth and caring for a newborn as they prepare to go back into the workforce.

Our First Family Photo with our healthy baby boy and his big sister.

Now, imagine that you’ve done this and then you didn’t get to bring your precious baby home with you, or you get home and use the resources you’ve lined up to have your precious baby die due to one reason or another. You now have to continue with your life, with no child to cuddle and hold; stressed about finances because your baby has died. This is a reality for many families in our communities.

I am making this blog post to tell you about the TEARS Foundation. This is a foundation that helps families out in their worst and most difficult times. I can tell you from experience that losing a child is the most horrible thing that a parent can ever endure. On top of this emotional burden, there is the added financial stress of planning and paying for a funeral or memorial service along with cremation or burial costs associated with the death. Knox and his big sister, Zoe Summer 2009.

All this; after you’ve exhausted yourself financially for this wonderful gift to arrive! Unfair, cruel and devastating are only a few of the words I can use to describe the feelings that a newly bereaved parent feels.

This is a short segment about the TEARS Foundation, that was filmed by King 5 News in Seattle, and we were lucky enough to be included in their story.

I am familiar with the TEARS Foundation because on August 17th of 2009, I found my infant son, Knox unresponsive and unconscious in his bassinet during his afternoon nap. After a long struggle to save him myself; being transported by ambulance to Providence Everett Medical Center, and airlifted to Seattle Children’s Hospital; Knox died from his extensive injuries while Sudden Infant Death Syndrome stole his life. On top of our roller coaster ride of discovering my child dead in his bed, being resuscitated by E.M.T.s, fighting to live in the Pediatric Intensive Care Unit and eventually dying we now needed to plan how we were going to pay for his cremation and memorial service. We had, like so many other unprepared families used a very large portion of our savings on preparing to add another precious child into the family; buying a crib, clothes, diapers and other necessities and left us with very little for such a large cost, so suddenly. The TEARS Foundation stepped in, and paid for about half of Knox’s memorial service and cremation costs. Had they not helped, our four-month-old son may have sat for days or weeks in the funeral home until we could organize the funds to cremate his little body and bring him home one last time. We are blessed enough to have such amazing families that were able to cover the remaining costs beyond what the TEARS Foundation weren't able to cover.

Our family at the March of Dimes, March for Babies May 2009, Knox was the youngest 'walker' there at only two weeks old!

The TEARS Foundation is a local (Washington State Based) 501c(3) non-profit organization that seeks to assist bereaved parents with the financial expenses they face in making the final arrangements for their precious baby who has died. Many of the founders and volunteers at the TEARS Foundation have experienced the loss of their own baby, and want to reach out in this way to support newly bereaved families in their devastating time of sorrow. The TEARS Foundation relies on donations from caring people and businesses in order to have sufficient funds on hand to offer assistance as needed.



Through this tragedy in my life, I am determined to help other families who have lost children. Many people, grandparents and parents alike do not realize that premature birth, birthing problems, Sudden Infant Death Syndrome, many types of illness and cancers actually do kill thousands of babies in our Country each year. I am posting this up to ask if you would be willing or able to make a fully tax-deductible donation to the TEARS Foundation to help other devastated families make it through the hardest days of their lives.




Please check out the TEARS Foundation’s website: www.TheTEARSFoundation.org to learn more about them. We are taking part in their annual 'Walk and Rock' at Safeco Field, in Seattle on June 26th just days after our wedding to support their cause and earn donations towards their amazing cause. Feel free to look at Knox's Team site, and donate their if you wish to. You can also see his videos, photos of read his story in more detail.

I hope you enjoy the videos of our little guy during his time on this earth! We miss him dearly, and I wanted to share the last photo I ever got to take of him, before heading out shopping with him and his big sister that afternoon. This photo is from Sunday August 16th, 2009. I found him unresponsive August 17th, and he passed August 18th.

Knox, Sunday August 16th 2009 headed to the Northgate Mall with mom to meet Auntie Jessica!

Again, any donations are appreciated! www.firstgiving.com/teamknox